Second time must be different...

This second time, I went there with hoping to find out something different.

You can't get well what something different is..?  That would be so many things. Most of them, especially, I want to see my different attitude and children having equable smile. They were never awkward greeting me and talking with me any more though this was just second time. The biggest change is we do not stand seperately like dividing Black&White. It is expected what we would change, how we would go together, how we should do for challenging.

At the first time, I really felt heavy because this was my first teaching. Even I had no idea how to start. But, we started by taking one topic. The topic of today was CIRCLE. The properties of circle, how can we apply the properties of circle, etc.. I and Hyunju had took on one student. I'd worried about his understanding because there is only one student but teachers are two. So, the student could be confused. In this case, we could say so many information would make us confused(It is not necessarily good). Our supervisor Prashant sir also advised the role and his understanding. Besides, today, Aalya, one of my friends, taught him together with us. So, there were three teachers and only one student! Finally, we faced 'the worrying'. There was one problem and we tried to explain the solution together. But, we had different solution each other. When we were explaining it, he was getting confused. We had to stop the explaining and talked about how we would explain... It was really not good way. We should have decided the teaching way and made pre-plans. I'm really sorry for him as well as get some idea for teaching.

After finishing the class, I gave him to paper piano with writing the name of my student which I'd folded for him. The paper piano is not just paper. It is a dream. I wanted to give him hope and dream. These kinds of words look like pretending or common thing to someone because these children and my position/condition is completely different. But, I cordially want them to have aggressive and positive mind. If they do not have that mind, I would help them think BIG! I feel we have good start.

I don't want to lose this step and this feelings. Once I would decide to be engaged in this study with them, I think I already have one reason to make change in both of us. I know sometimes I would face some problems like discourages, annoying, boring, or their sickness and so on. But, if I have stable mind which I have to take in doing this kind of work, I'll overcome those problems and do it well. Furthermore, I'm really happy to be with them!